Dear Lord,
I have things running around in my head and I just needed to talk to You about it. Forgive me for I have been a very luke-warm Christian lately. Lord, I pray that you cleanse me of any unclean thing you see in me. I'm sorry for not devoting my time to you. I've been so caught up in other things that I forget to turn back to you and give you the praise that you most definitely deserve.
Lord, I can’t help but to feel for those whom I surround myself with. I can’t help but to feel pain for those who also are in pain, those who are suffering, those who don’t know You, Lord. Help me to not be afraid to spread Your word to those who do not yet know you. Help me share to them how loving and forgiving you are. Help me show how awesome and how great you really are. Help me help others, Lord.
I woke up this morning feeling pretty good. I turn on the computer and come across something that made my stomach feel uneasy. I don’t understand it Lord, how when I ask if everything is okay, in return, I get the response “Yeah, I’m fine” or “I’m good” or “Yes, everything is good.” Apparently not. I want to be the person that people are able to turn to for advice, to talk to, or even just to listen. But at the same time Lord, I want people to know that they can turn to You in every situation, good and bad. I want people to know that You would never give up on them and that You will always be there. I want people to know that Your hands are always stretched out to us. You are faithful Lord and I thank you for that. No matter how bad we are, no matter how many sins we’ve committed, no matter how bad the sin is, you are still there with opened arms to take us in and to love us unconditionally.
As I was driving home after dropping CJ off at school this morning, I was feeling terrible. I was feeling like a horrible person. I kept thinking to myself “What more could I have done? What did I do wrong? Why is my friend feeling that way? Why is he saying these things? What’s making him hurt inside? Why can’t he talk to me about it? Why can’t I help him?” Then, By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North came on the radio. I instantly thought about Gizmo’s Youtube video. A few months ago, he sent it to me shortly after telling me that he is attempting to live a Christian lifestyle. I can’t explain how happy and overjoyed I was to read his comment. After months and possibly years of not talking, the first thing he says is that he wants to live a Christian lifestyle. I remember being so happy for him, and happy for You Lord, for you have opened another pair of eyes to see the light of Your glory. I sat there in my car, crying, and for the first time in a very long time, my mind was clear. I listened and sang along to the song, taking in every single lyric and meditating upon the message. Lord, I thank You for playing that song this morning. It made me realize that you are always by my side, holding my hands. You are there to lift me up no matter where I am, what situation I’m in, whenever I call, you are always there. Lord I pray that others are able to seek Your name and to turn to you in all situations, good and bad. Lord I pray that you help my friend realize that you are always there for him. I pray that he realizes You will never fail him… that you are faithful. I pray that you protect him and guide him through whatever it is that he is going through. I pray that he realizes how many people care and love him. I pray that you open his eyes and have him realize that every trial, every tribulation, all the disappointing things that he has been through, has lead him to this very moment… this moment where he no longer has to fight alone. I pray that he realizes that You, Lord, are there to pick him up and walk with him, side by side, holding his hands.
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him will not perish, but have everlasting life." -John 3:16Lord I thank you for listening and being here with me. You truly are an amazing, loving, forgiving, and faithful God.
Father thank you for hearing me and I pray that Your will be done in the name of Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior…
Amen.
Tenth Avenue North - By Your SideWhy are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away
Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run
And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life
(Chorus 2x)
Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go
(Chorus 2x)
