Winter.

It's officially Winter! I want to go up to the snow but I don't know how that's going to happen. I want to learn how to snowboard.

My break has been pretty great so far. I've got tons of downtime. I've been hanging out with people lately... CREW, now that Andrew's back and Aaron. We've been on two "adventures" so far and we're still planning more. We're thinking about City Walk on Wednesday but that's not for sure yet.

So my birthday passed and it was great. I pretty much had a whole week of birthday stuff. Sushi with the College/20-something Bible study group, Lucille's with Crew and a few other friends, Sunday morning breakfast with my parents and brother, Aaron took me out to Pink's and we had a little adventure in LA/Hollywood... fun stuff!

I've applied to a handful of jobs but nobody has called back. I wish I could find a job so that I can make my own spending money. My brother's going to college next year and my parents are going to need all the money they can get and by having a job, I could help pay for my own utilities (gas, my own spending money, cell phone, etc). Let's just pray someone will call me.

I only have two classes for Winter quarter. BOO! I'm going to try and sit in on the first day in any class I can get. I wanted to take 4 classes this quarter but we'll see how that goes.


Things I'd like to get off my chest:

1. You've been lying to me and I know about it. I mean, just tell me the truth. It's bound to come out eventually so why not just tell me? Stop saying you're going to be "good" when you turn around and do all that stupid stuff that you're doing. The only person you're really hurting is yourself. You think you're doing yourself a favor by ignoring your issues!? ******* **** isn't going to help you AT ALL. For the time being, maybe, but you're still going to have to face reality in the end. Take control of your life. You say you have Faith but really... where is it? You scare me all the time when I read the things you say. You say "Don't worry" but how can I not? I try not to... I mean, your life is really none of my business but when you put it out there like that, obviously people are going to get a glimpse of what's really going on. Please, take control and do something POSITIVE. I'm here to help as much as I can. Please, stop this nonsense.

2. I still don't know how to tell you. I don't know how to bring it up. =/

3. Sucks that you're falling into that trap, but you're smart enough to handle yourself so please don't make any excuses for yourself. I love you but I can't fight your battles for you.


Well, I'm off to Clarisse's house for brunch soon. Gotta get ready cuz I'm still in my PJs.

Until next blog...

BUH. OR. DUMB.

Boredom. The only reason I'm blogging right now is because my professor for my comm class didn't show up so the whole class left. We were supposed to start our persuasive speeches today too. Everyone was happy because nobody had to present... so now I'm sitting in the computer lab trying to kill time.

So it's been a while since I last blogged. I've been pretty lazy to blog... but it's not like anybody reads this anyway. If you do read this, I'm way more active on FB and, yes, Twitter. I got sucked into Twitter because I promised Amber that I'd make one once I got unlimited texting.

School has been tough. Lots of work but I'm pulling through. Quarter's almost done... which means finals are coming up. CRAP, I need to bust my butt for them. I don't feel mentally prepared, ugh...

1&2. It sucks how things are changing between the three of us. I thought that *this* would bring us closer but it really hasn't... at all. It sucks but I'm learning to accept it. Who knows... maybe thing will change later on in the near (or far) future.

3. I'm still skeptical about this whole situation. Unless things change, I know I can't go anywhere with our friendship. Nothing can be persued if things stay the way they are now. I pray that God helps you with whatever it is you're going through. I really want you to be well and happy. I know you enjoying making others happy but you have to learn to conquer whatever's bothering YOU. You have to overcome all the crap you went through in the past and learn from it. Don't let it hold you back. Just please, be smart with your actions. I just hope you know that I'll always be here for you.

4. After talking to *confidential*, I've, yet again, realized all the crap you put me through. What kind of friend talks and treats people the way you do? Obviously not a good one. I just pray that you change your ways and realize what's going on. Stop being blinded and naive. Please, PLEASE do the right thing.

5. You're great. I love hanging out with you. With all the crappy friendships that I'm sorting out, it's refreshing to know that you're always there. I don't know where I'd be without you... a LONER, that's for sure. I always tell you how much I appreciate and love you, but I can't say it enough. I LOVE YOU FOO! :) Thanks for all the good times and for always being by my side. You're amazing.

6. The truth's gotta come out sometime... Lord give me strength and courage.



YEAH, that's just a bit of random rambling and venting. I guess that's it for now...

Until next blog...

Hello, rain!

Sweater weather!

Hot chocolate weather!

Coat weather!

Hot soup weather!

Boots weather!

Cuddling weather!

Scarf weather!

Fireplace weather!

Snowboarding weather!

Layering weather!

Multiple blankets weather!

Beanie weather!

Windshield wiper weather!

Heater>AC weather!

Long toe socks weather!

Rainbow-after-the-rain weather!

After a long, and toasted hot summer, I'd like to introduce and welcome...

RAIN&FALL&(ALMOST)WINTER TIME! :)

Until next blog...

Man I love college!

First off, I just want to say: GOODBYE SUMMER 2009! You've been SO good to me! It was THE BEST SUMMER EVER! I love you so much and thank you LORD for EVERYTHING! So much happened this summer and I will cherish the memories ALWAYS.

Today was great! So much better than I expected.

Woke up at 5 to get ready and left the house at 6 to go to the train station. I sat next to some Asian guy who was reading the newspaper and in front of this pretty big Caucasian guy who dressed like a farmer... overalls and all! He talked to me a little bit and kept staring at me... so I just looked away.

Met up with Cherisse, Kristine, Camille, and (Ch/K?)ristine before my first class. Went to Oral Communications and I can already tell that it'll be my favorite class this quarter. My teacher is really funny and pretty chill. The class just had an ice breaker thing. Met Avika! She's cool! She's Thai as well. The students in that class are pretty chill for the most part. Even on the first day we were all able to laugh and joke around with each other. Pretty fun! The only unfortunate part about this class... we already have to read about 80 pages by Tuesday, lol.

My English class is whatevers. My teacher seems pretty nice. I met Esteban. He's pretty cool! He came and sat in front of me. I guess we're now "English buddies." Haha! There are only 5 guys in that class and 13 girls. Good ratio huh? Ha!

Then went to Sbarro and ate with Kristine, Cherisse, Camille, the OTHER Kristine, Cheryl, Donna and Jovanna. OMG they're all so funny! Especially Donna! I can tell her and Kristine will get along JUST fine.

Went to my last class (math) and WOW, not to be mean, but my teacher is SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND! She's a fob. =/ She has a pretty heavy accent. This class is going to be whatevers too. I just hope I do well. It's gonna be even harder since I have to try hard to understand what my teacher is saying.

After class got out, Kristine and I went to the library to pick up my email account info. THEN went to Student Union and saw Wesley! He was there waiting for Jasmine so we just sat and talked with him. Then Cheryl came and I had to leave. =(

The train ride home was interesting. This one guy either did not pay and snuck on OR bought the wrong ticket. When the conductor dude was checking tickets, that guy got all pissed because the conductor told him he's going to have to get out after the next 2 stops and had to wait an hour until the next train comes. He was so pissed that he started cussing and the two were arguing.

Went to visit Miss P. at Walnut High and met up with Danielle. Then went to Jack in the Box w/ Danielle and just talked some more about school.

TADA! There's my first day! Going to Bible study soon. Man, this weekend will be full of reading for me. BRING IT ON, COLLEGE!

Until next blog!

Why am I still waiting?

Generally, I'd like to believe that I know what I want for myself. Lately, I've been torn between two sides. I know what I want, and what you've shown me isn't it, yet I'm still here waiting... maybe for something that is only going to happen in my head. I can't have this... it's so unhealthy for me, and for you as well, but at the same time... I can't help the part of me that wants to help people. I can't help the part of me that constantly brings me back to the good times. I can't help the part of me that feels for you. I can't help the part of me that is more than willing to constantly be there. I suppose that's just who I am.

I think one of the reasons why I haven't stopped waiting is because I wouldn't know what to say. I feel like some of the things you say are truly genuine and come from your heart. But at the same time, I feel like some of the things you say are just BS and you don't really mean them. I can't tell if you mean the things you say or not. I have strong feelings for both sides, the positive and negative, but where do I go from there? Like I said earlier, I'm torn.

I've only ever given my all. I've only ever been real with you. I've never told you anything that I don't mean. The thing that tears me apart the more I think about it is the fact that, to me, all the efforts are only coming from one side of the party. Sometimes I feel like you don't take things seriously and that just confuses me even more. Maybe the situation shouldn't be taken too seriously, but I hate feeling vulnerable. Why I let that happen is beyond me.

Honestly, there have been so many times where I just wanted to give up on you.
As horrible as I feel saying this, I don't know why I haven't already done so...


This is what's on my mind. Things will probably change within the next few hours anyway, who knows. You know how girls are...
Time will tell. It's all in God's hands.


Until the next blog...

Yikes!

I need to update this thing ASAP!

"Vince: Jonnica joined sleepy dinosaur-
on sleepy dinosaur 8/26/0"

Indeed I did! Which is what made me remember about Blogspot, ha! I need to update! But I'm too lazy right now. I will try to update sometime this week.

But then again, it's not like anybody reads this anyway.

Until next blog...

A few things I jotted down during church service this past Sunday

The moment you cry out to God, you become righteous to Him. Let us be the ones to ask for forgiveness when we are the ones wronged because Christ asked the Father for forgiveness when we were the ones who wronged.

Romans 12:19-21 Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay", says the Lord. On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head." Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

My Public Prayer

Dear Lord,

I have things running around in my head and I just needed to talk to You about it. Forgive me for I have been a very luke-warm Christian lately. Lord, I pray that you cleanse me of any unclean thing you see in me. I'm sorry for not devoting my time to you. I've been so caught up in other things that I forget to turn back to you and give you the praise that you most definitely deserve.

Lord, I can’t help but to feel for those whom I surround myself with. I can’t help but to feel pain for those who also are in pain, those who are suffering, those who don’t know You, Lord. Help me to not be afraid to spread Your word to those who do not yet know you. Help me share to them how loving and forgiving you are. Help me show how awesome and how great you really are. Help me help others, Lord.

I woke up this morning feeling pretty good. I turn on the computer and come across something that made my stomach feel uneasy. I don’t understand it Lord, how when I ask if everything is okay, in return, I get the response “Yeah, I’m fine” or “I’m good” or “Yes, everything is good.” Apparently not. I want to be the person that people are able to turn to for advice, to talk to, or even just to listen. But at the same time Lord, I want people to know that they can turn to You in every situation, good and bad. I want people to know that You would never give up on them and that You will always be there. I want people to know that Your hands are always stretched out to us. You are faithful Lord and I thank you for that. No matter how bad we are, no matter how many sins we’ve committed, no matter how bad the sin is, you are still there with opened arms to take us in and to love us unconditionally.

As I was driving home after dropping CJ off at school this morning, I was feeling terrible. I was feeling like a horrible person. I kept thinking to myself “What more could I have done? What did I do wrong? Why is my friend feeling that way? Why is he saying these things? What’s making him hurt inside? Why can’t he talk to me about it? Why can’t I help him?” Then, By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North came on the radio. I instantly thought about Gizmo’s Youtube video. A few months ago, he sent it to me shortly after telling me that he is attempting to live a Christian lifestyle. I can’t explain how happy and overjoyed I was to read his comment. After months and possibly years of not talking, the first thing he says is that he wants to live a Christian lifestyle. I remember being so happy for him, and happy for You Lord, for you have opened another pair of eyes to see the light of Your glory. I sat there in my car, crying, and for the first time in a very long time, my mind was clear. I listened and sang along to the song, taking in every single lyric and meditating upon the message. Lord, I thank You for playing that song this morning. It made me realize that you are always by my side, holding my hands. You are there to lift me up no matter where I am, what situation I’m in, whenever I call, you are always there. Lord I pray that others are able to seek Your name and to turn to you in all situations, good and bad. Lord I pray that you help my friend realize that you are always there for him. I pray that he realizes You will never fail him… that you are faithful. I pray that you protect him and guide him through whatever it is that he is going through. I pray that he realizes how many people care and love him. I pray that you open his eyes and have him realize that every trial, every tribulation, all the disappointing things that he has been through, has lead him to this very moment… this moment where he no longer has to fight alone. I pray that he realizes that You, Lord, are there to pick him up and walk with him, side by side, holding his hands.

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him will not perish, but have everlasting life." -John 3:16

Lord I thank you for listening and being here with me. You truly are an amazing, loving, forgiving, and faithful God.

Father thank you for hearing me and I pray that Your will be done in the name of Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior…

Amen.


Tenth Avenue North - By Your Side
Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

(Chorus 2x)

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

(Chorus 2x)

I felt like blogging for the sake of blogging. I came with no purpose or subject, so we'll see how this ends.

Ronnie and Dia's wedding was the Sunday after we came back from the East Coast. I was so honored to be a part of it. They are so in love! I've never cried at a wedding but I did cry at theirs. Well, not BAWLING crying, but a few tears here and there. I wish them all the best!

Then Vegas a few weeks after. I'd have to say that this trip to Vegas beat all the other times I've been there. It's funny too, because I didn't do much at all. Got to watch The Lion King and that show was AMAZING. Did some swimming and spa time, which was nice. Madam Tussaud’s Wax Museum was pretty good too, but I don’t think I’d pay another $25 to see it. Then, after tons of texts and phone calls and uncoordinated planning, after 3 long years, the wait was over. Gizmo went through all this crap, biking all over the strip, making his way to see me. It was pretty fun, the process to meet up, but only him and I could understand why. “Oh, okay, I’ll call you back.” 5 minutes later “Okay okay, I’ll call you back.” :)

Just a few things to remind me of the morning of July 4, 2009, 5:30AM-6:30AM (in no particular order):
- “I’ll call you back.”… “Okay, let me call you back.”… “Okay, I’ll call you back.”
- “It’s not the one with the monorail? What!? How many Hiltons are there!?”
- “Do you have a red blinky light thing on the back of your bike?”
- Magnetic force!
- Kirkland water & a banana
- One pocket!?
- ONE purple wheel?
- Burning sun
- Pointing out “colors” HAHA
- Get close, pull away
- Thumb war in pocket
- Samurai ponytail
- Scratch back and head
- PARANOIA!
- Palm scratching/tickle
- Whoa, BITE! What!?
- “Where are you? Let’s eat breakfast.” DANG IT, lol.
- Waving for forever until I disappeared
- “I was so happy that I started saying happy 4th to random people.”
- :]

My parents got a $100 gift card to use on specific restaurants. They decided to give it to me and my brother and we ended up spending $64 something on food. HOLY COW! It’s not that we ordered a lot, but the food was pretty pricey, at least for us. But it was pretty good, I must say. Didn’t get to see much fireworks, only maybe 5 minutes worth. Nothing different from any other fireworks.

Yes, what a great 4th of July weekend. Actually, great would totally be an understatement. Thank you, G, for everything.

The not-so-great-part about this summer: I’ve been sick TWICE already and both while I was on vacation. =/

1. I pray that we aren’t making a mistake. Everything has been so good and I pray that it continues. Maybe God is testing us…

2. Thank you for being there even after all the crap I put you though. Sometimes I act without thinking and you, of ALL people, do NOT deserve it. You’ve taught me better than that and I truly appreciate, from the bottom of my heart, all of your efforts, love, and care. I love you.

3. I’m flattered and honored that you feel that I am capable of leading. This is something I never thought I would ever do, but God willing, it can happen. I just pray that I am able to do my job well enough.

4. I know you feel pressured because of the people around you, but remember that you are your own person. I know you get frustrated with all of what people say, but remember that they only say those things because they love you. Just take things one at a time and just do your best. No matter what, I’ll always love and be proud of you.

Today is Michael Jackson’s memorial service at the Staples Center. I’m listening as I type. What a legacy he has made for himself. Rest in Peace, MJ.

If you got through all this, congrats. You are a beast.


Until Next Blog…

Hello Summer 2009!

Wow, so much has happened since my last post! I finally graduated! It really was a bittersweet feeling. I still don't feel like I completely left school yet. Maybe once the next phase of my life starts, I'll start to feel it. 

I took a 10 day vacation to the East coast. Can you imagine 16 loud Filipinos on a 10 day trip? Yikes! But it was super fun. CONGRATS TO MY COUSIN FLOYD (the reason we all went to the East in the first place)! A Magna Cum Laude graduate of Dartmouth College! Haaaaaay! :) We couldn't be any more proud of you! Or, actually, we can, haha. Next up: MEDICAL SCHOOL! Woot!

I'm currently at my cousins' house in LA. Going to Floyd's grad party this afternoon so I'm just chilling here in the meantime. 

Ronnie and Dia are FINALLY getting married tomorrow. I can't wait! They're so happy together (as any other newly-wed-to-be's would be)! :) I'm going to be an usher and I am so delightfully honored! Can't wait to show everyone our Jai Ho dance! We've been practicing for a while now and I pray that it'll turn out well!

Yeah, lots of details left unsaid but I'm not in that much of a blogging mood. 

Until next blog!

P.S.

I can't believe the news I heard this morning. I thought you didn't want any! I guess that's life. Let's wait and see how everyone will react to it. I guess it COULD be worse. As much as I am a bit disappointed, I can still find that little ounce inside of me to be happy for you. I just pray that everything works out for you in the end. 

P.S.S.

RIP Michael Jackson & Farrah Fawcett. 

I know. I couldn't believe it either. I still can't.

Too fast, too soon?

1. I'm sorry if this is too much too soon. I sometimes get overwhelmed and act before thinking. I don't want to fall into it too soon again. But I'm telling you now... I'm not hating it one bit. I just need to slow it down. I wonder what your thoughts are about this... but I'm too chicken to ask. I guess I'll just let my mind do all the imagining...


"Don't you know that love isn't just going to bed? Love isn't an act, it's a whole life. It's staying with her now because she needs you; it's knowing you and she will still care about each other when sex and daydreams, fights and futures -- when all that's on the shelf and done with. Love -- why, I'll tell you what love is: it's you at seventy-five and her at seventy-one, each of you listening for the other's step in the next room, each afraid that a sudden silence, a sudden cry, could mean a lifetime's talk is over." — Brian Moore


I guess it just says it all in that one away message I had: I just really miss that feeling.


Until next blog.

Say hello!

Say hello to my newly done nails!

Say hello to my new BlackBerry!

Say hello to Isaiah's flowers and note!

Say hello to this pretty orchid I took a picture of!

Prom is tomorrow! I am super excited! Being with my friends, being with my super cool date, making and sharing wonderful memories! Oh man, I can't wait!

You know, despite all this crap that's been going on, I think we've all gotten so much closer as a group, believe it or not. Screw all this stupid crap! We're better than that. As me and John would say: "WHATEVS! F*** IT!" :D I love you guys so much!

Until the next blog! :D

Praise God

It's always nice to know that you helped contribute to someone's walk with Christ.
Praise God!


Anytime, G.
:)



Until Next Blog...




***UPDATED @ 11:06 PM***

Wow, I really can't believe what I just heard about you. YOU, of ALL people. Why? I thought you were smarter than that. I mean, it's a possibility that it could all just be a rumor, but if it isn't, I really can't believe you would do that. And come to think of it... if it really is true, your actions make so much more sense to me now.

God, please help her.

Until the next blog....

WOW.

ONLY TWO ROUNDS.
Need I say more?


Manny "Pacman" Pacquiao FTW.
Always.

Oh happy day!

Actually, oh happy dayS. So many good things have been happening lately! 

1. My cousins Klein and Odessa are FINALLY going to be PARENTS! I'm so so SO happy for them, you don't even know! Everyone is so excited and happy for them. I got the call from Odessa yesterday and I literally screamed! Oh boy, I can't wait until he/she comes! 

2. Spent Saturday with my cousins dress shopping in LA. Didn't find anything though. Then went to a family party later that night. Lots of fun!

3. Isaiah asked me to prom yesterday. It happened so fast! I'm so excited!

4. I went dress shopping again yesterday. Took me all-in-all... about 2-3 hours. Finally narrowed it down to two dresses. Then to one dress, but two different colors. Couldn't decide, so left empty-handed.  Went back today after school and ended up getting a whole different dress. It's simple and cute. LOVE the color too! 

So yes, a very good weekend and start of the week. =) Then hung out with Renee a little bit this morning before school. I love her. I truly love her. 

AH, I have much more to write about but not enough free time. 

Until next blog!

Spring Break Begins!

Today is the first day of my Spring Break and I have nothing planned, HA. I will, however, spend a few hours at the gym. 

So, a happy belated birthday to one of my dearest friends John Biscocho! Dang, Mr. 19! I think we're going to celebrate this coming Tuesday. It should be fun.

Two (ish) more months of school. It's bitter-sweet, really. I'm excited to finally be graduating, but at the same time, it's going to be weird adjusting to... I know this will sound cheesy... A NEW LIFE. Well, somewhat of a new life, haha. A whole new phase of my life is soon to come and I'm pretty excited. I'm trying hard to finish strong with these last couple months, but I will admit that I am getting lazier and lazier as the days go by, lol.

*****

1. I finally told you what I've been holding in for WEEKS. I wanted to let you know how much it disappointed and hurt me. YOU, of all people... I just couldn't believe it. I'm sorry if what I said hurt you, but I HAD to tell you. I hope you change your ways because living that way isn't healthy. I hope you see and understand why I confronted you about it. You know I still love you, and I always will. But you have to stop.

2. I think I speak on behalf of everyone when I say that we just want what's best for you. I hope you know that we all care for you and would hate to see you go through all that crap AGAIN. Before jumping in to anything, take a while to really think about it. USE YOUR HEAD and make the RIGHT and BEST decisions. And always PRAY about it.

3. DUDE, you're SO MUCH FUN! I LOVE being around you and hanging out with you. You have such a unique and genuine personality. AND you're SUCH a sweetheart! It's so easy to joke around and laugh with you. I'm so glad we became better friends. I LOVE YOU FOO! Haha! 

4. Oh how I WISH you could read my mind! I really, REALLY **** ** ** ** **** **** ***, ****! I can't tell you how long I've wanted this, lol. PRAYER is KEY, so I hope my prayers get answered!

5. I miss talking to you. We used to talk SO much about EVERYTHING. I was surprised when you decided to randomly IM me the other day. Just wanted to say that I do miss you.

6. I know I may not say or do anything about it, but it sometimes bothers me how you talk and treat me. I know you may only be "kidding" but it makes me feel like crap... it makes me not want to hang out with you. You have your "nice" moments, but it's those little comments and gestures that bugs the crap out of me. Friends don't treat each other like that. Like I said earlier, I know I may not say or do anything about it, but something like this shouldn't even have to be discussed. A friend should know better than that. And as far as I know, I have done nothing to you to deserve the way you sometimes treat me. Or maybe you just don't realize that you're doing what you're doing...

7. I miss you! I feel like I barely see or talk to you. I miss hanging out every week and having our weekly updates. I guess that's what happens when people grow up. They get busier, lol. But that's okay. The longer the wait, the more we'll have to talk about when we do get to talk. 

8. COME HOME ALREADY! I miss you like crazy!!! And I'm sorry that I'm SO bad at sending letters. I always have them written but it takes me so long to actually SEND them, lol. Forgive me. But man, I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!

9. I'm sorry for acting differently around you. My perspective of you has changed from the first time I met you. 

10. I love you. Truly. With all my heart. I will never give up on you. I put all my trust and faith in you. Thank you for all that you have done and what you will continue to do. 

*****

Until the next blog....

Sunday morning rain is falling

Yes, it was raining this morning. I should've listened to that song this morning.

So let's blog about the usual, yes? It's always a recap of the past week:
Again, nothing too exciting happened. Something A TAD BIT UNFORTUNATE (to me) happened though, but I'll leave it at that. Life goes on and everything is done for the will of God, so it's all good in the hood.

Beached it up this past Tuesday with Kristine, Cherisse, Danielle, Cindy, James, and Justin. Went to Newport. We (Me, Kristine, James, and Danielle) started to head towards SAN DIEGO, which was funny, but we found out just in time to turn back. I was collecting shells the whole time. We stayed for about an hour and then we ate at TK Burger afterwards. Good stuff, good stuff.

School has been killer lately. Well, not really, but I really gotta kick it up like 10 notches. NO JOKE. Almost done with school, thank God. Few more months left.

24HourFitness is HEAVEN. Well, not literally of course, but thank God for gyms! Such a motivation for me. When I used to exercise at home, I was never this motivated. I've been going for about a month and a half and I've lost about 5 pounds. Slow start, but it's something. I need to start eating better too. Now that Rachel goes, I may have found myself a gym buddy.

Bad news: Dennis isn't coming home as soon as I thought he would be. =(

I need to get back to studying and homework.
UNTIL NEXT BLOG...

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What's up Blogspot? I don't know if anyone reads my blogspot. I should just stick to Xanga because at least I know Dennis reads it, lol. But since blogspot is such a big trend right now, I'll go along with it.

Yesterday was dope! Hung out with Kristine, Renee, and Robin afterschool. Hung out with Janmhar for a little while too. We went to get Sushi at SUSHI Q in Chino Hills. $2.95 a plate. Not too bad. The deep fried sushi is SO good! I wish I bought more. Then we got yogurt at Cherry on Top afterwards. So many things happened in between all of our car rides. SO HILARIOUS. I don't feel like typing it all out. But dang, so many inside jokes now. "WAT DAH HAIL!?" HAHA, thanks Kristine! It's nice hanging out with Kristine and Renee outside of school. I hope it happens more often.

I got a letter from Dennis yesterday. My first letter from him since he's left for Afghanistan since the end of January. I MISS HIM SO MUCH! It's like losing a brother! But he's doing well, so I'm happy.

Didn't do too much today. Went to the gym with CJ. Vanderson and Aldrin met us up there. I'm going to a party in North Hollywood in a couple hours. My cousin Taylor's 16th and my other cousin Mark's 25th birthday party. That should be fun. I love hanging out with all my cousins!

Okay, until next blog!

18!?

Happy birthday to my favorite twin brothers Edward JAMES Torres and Mark Anthony Torres. FINALLY 18! Legal and ready to... be good boys. WAIT NO-- men. =)

AND happy belated birthday to CINDY HIGASHIDA! Sheesh, everyone's turning 18 now. What's taking everyone else forever (AHEM, DANIELLE CRYSTAL ANDREW JANMHAR JUSTIN ARVIN RENEE!!!)

I haven't even been going to the gym for a week yet and I'm already seeing progress. SCORE! I can't wait to see what a month can do.

I miss my camera. =( I don't want to go into detail about why I don't have it, but I do miss him terribly. Oh well, I'll have him back in time.

Until next blog...

3 day weekend

A lot happened this weekend. Let's recap and I'll try to make it short.

Friday: Hung out with Crystal, James, Janmhar, Andrew, Justin, Mark, Justin, Romel, and Nikki after school. I met Nikki on Friday. She's pretty chill! She wiped my windows for me because they were fogging up and I couldn't wipe them while I was driving. We chilled in the parking lot at the teen center for a while, ATTEMPTING to figure out what to do. We ended up taking car pictures and just messing around. Then got some boba. THEN went to Mega Video to rent Mirrors. THEN went to Taco Bell to get some grub. THEN went to Mark and James' house to chill. It was pretty fun. I hung out with Paul and AJ in the kitchen for the most part, lol. Man, all I have to say to sum up the night is "That's what she said." I had to leave early because I had to go to Bible Study.

Saturday: California Adventures on Valentine's Day. Luckily it didn't rain that day. But it was pretty cold. Hung out with Crystal, Ariel, Gloria, Robert, Fabian, Spencer, Lee and Chris. Cherisse and Kristine came late and we didn't really get to hang out with them much, unfortunately. =( Me, Crystal, and Gloria were "craving for fajitas" all day and night. We only found some towards the end of the night. I didn't have an actual Valentine this year. Last year, my long time friend Jeremy asked me to be his Valentine, but we didn't get to talk this year so no Valentines for us! =( Maybe next year.

Sunday: Reisee's birthday party all the way in Palmdale. My brother and I cooked wontons for the party and it took forever to fry! On our way there, we picked up Danielle and headed for Reisee's. As soon as we arrived, I got out of the car and threw up. =/ Yeah, gross. The party was pretty fun. The uncles, aunts, and cousins were already gambling when we got there, which was odd. They usually start at night but it was like 3 something and they had already started. I took pictures throughout most of the party. I got to play with Klein's lenses and bounce flash. I REALLY WANT ONE. I need to save up. And Danielle drove me, Reisee, and Elaine around to show off her new driving skills. She just got her license on the 10th. So congrats to my little cousin! She's a pretty good driver too, with the exception of her left turns.

Monday (today): Woke up late since I got home late from the party. Ate brunch and dropped off my car at the shop to change my tires. After that, went to the new 24Hour Fitness and I am now officially a member. =) Went home, changed, gathered all my workout stuff and headed back to the gym. Worked out for about an hour and a half. I did a lot of cardio and leg workouts and man, I'm sore right now. Oh, I saw Brian Briones there too! I haven't seen him for YEARS! Went to Costco afterwards to get gas and dinner. Went inside to shop for some stuff then headed home. I went to go pick up my car with my dad and I ended up getting to drive the Lexus home. It was pretty cool. The pick up on that car is nice.

Yep, I had a pretty eventful weekend. February is a crazy month for me. I have stuff going on every single weekend this month. And now that I have a gym membership, I'm probably going to spend most of my free time there.

I've been putting my camera to good use lately. I really want a flash. I need to go pick up Dennis' flash from Glendale. But I don't want to drive that far. I need to save up for my own.

To do list:
1. Write to Dennis.
2. Snailmail Liane.
3. Keep up with school work.
4. Go to the gym at least 5 days a week, even if it's for only 30 minutes.
5. Buy ***** for **** & *****. =)
6. Pray and read the Bible more!

Until next blog...

Rain.

So Dennis officially left for Afghanistan today. He was in Houston since my last blog but his flight left early in the afternoon today. I'm going to miss him. Heck, I already do.

Nothing too significant has happened since my last blog. School, my aunt's birthday party, more school, Bible study, homework, more school, mini chill sessions afterschool... Eh, nada. Oh wait! I got two new piercings, haha. Just one more on each lobe, nothing too crazy. Danielle encouraged me to get them. It was pretty spontaneous too. Thanks Danielle! Haha.

I want to start using my camera everyday. Capture life as it appears to my eyes. HAHA, how overly emo and artsy does that sound!? But I do. I want to put it to good use. After all, I DID pay for it all.

It rained today. It's raining pretty hard right now. As I was driving home from school, I almost got into an accident. It was a 3 way stop sign and it was my turn to go, BUT this one dude decided to just go without waiting and luckily we both stopped in time. Thank God we're all okay.

I don't know what it is about the rain, but sometimes it brings out the moody side of me. Not the biotchy side, but like... the sensitive side I guess. I'm listening to some feel-good music right now and I just feel so mellow...

So I guess I'm not going to WF. As much as I really want to, it's already too late. I'll just find something to do, someplace to go, someone to hang out with. Maybe Marian... or my dog. I hope everyone that's going has a great time though.

I don't know what else to write. I guess I'll just end this here.



Until the next blog...

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This is pretty self explanatory (a comment I wrote today to Dennis at 4AM):

"Okay so it's NOW really starting to hit me that you're leaving. It's freaking late, well, technically early, but I saw that you changed your song and decided to come listen to it. Then I see that you put up that picture of me, amber and cj and as I'm listening to the song and writing this comment, I'm crying. Yes, I said it. FINALLY right? Maybe the darkness outside and the only like in the house being in my room just sets the mood perfectly. I don't know why Dennis... I swear, I'm such a girl sometimes. I didn't want to cry. I didn't even cry when I said bye to you, but now. WHY NOW!? Dennis, you haven't technically left yet and I already miss you. I hate crying when I don't want to. It makes me cry even more. UGH DENNIS, I can't wait until this song comes true. I can't wait until you come home. I pray that nothing happens to you. Nothing bad, of course. If you were to see what a mess I look like right now, you'd laugh hysterically. Seriously. I don't even know if this comment will all fit. I don't even know how much I've written. I just keep ranting. I'm sure I'll be okay in time, but like I said, it's finally hitting me. TO THE POINT WHERE MY EYES ARE PUFFY FROM CRYING. Seriously... what am I going to do without you? Nobody to tell me to go to sleep when I'm online late anymore. Nobody to randomly IM me just because I didn't IM him. Nobody to have adventures with. Nobody to laugh at me when I have my "girl moments." None of that for a whole year. Dennis, please be safe. I know God will protect you. Remember to pray everyday. Pray more than once everyday. Pray as if your life depended on it. I don't want to end this comment, because I'm going to feel like we're leaving again for a second time, as dumb as that sounds. Don't forget to write me as soon as you get your new address okay? FREAKING AFGHANISTAN MAN! I wonder how long it takes to get mail from all the way over there. I think Amber said a week or so. Sheesh. Okay, I stopped crying. This took so long to wait that I've played "Home" about 3 times already.

You know when we were hugging and you said "I'm going to miss you"? Well, I heard you, but I didn't get to say it back. I wanted to, but I knew I was going to cry. But I know you know that I'm going to miss you. Heck, I already said it in this comment. Ugh, okay, I lied, I'm crying again. =( Okay okay, it's now 4AM and I need to wake up early for practice so I guess I'll end my long rant here. So to wrap it all up, BE SAFE, PRAY, DON'T FORGET TO WRITE, MAKE VIDEOS AND POST THEM ON YOUTUBE WHILE YOU'RE THERE, AND DON'T FORGET TO DECORATE YOUR ROOM SUPER COOL!

I miss you Dennis. I love you.

-Jonnica"

Ouch.

I just discovered that I have the worst knots in my back and shoulders ever! It's horrible! :(


Tonight, all I feel like doing is falling asleep to some good old slow jams...



Until the next blog...

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Okay so nothing super cool happened to me today, but hey, what's new? Well actually, me, Crystal, and Ariel went to Donut Tree in the morning before school.

Nothing cool happened during school. Nothing to me at least. After school, me, Crystal, Ariel, and Cherisse went to $1 Boba and chilled for like... over an hour. I'm surprised they didn't kick us out. We talked about a whole mess of stuff. Good AND bad. Happy AND sad. Funny and, well, funny, haha. Then Crystal came over and we went walking around my neighborhood. We walked up this steep hill. Now both of our butts and thighs are sore. Pain is beauty I guess.

EVERYONE is talking about it! It's expected I guess, since it's only around the corner. I don't want to tell you, but at the same time, I DO. It's not THAT big of a deal, but I wind up thinking about it everyday. I don't really want to, but it just happens. I can't help it, especially if all my friends are talking about it.

Yeah Mark, I need one of those too... =[ I think at this point, only prayers can help me, as sad as that sounds. OH LORD, PLEASE HELP ME FIND A DATE! (Haha, that makes me want to laugh at myself.)

ASDF! AHHH! Okay, ENOUGH FEELING SAD! I need to finish up some homework and stop being lazy.

Until next blog...

Yeah yeah yeah...

Yes, I made one of these blogspot things. I only made it because I wanted to comment on Mark's blog. He wrote something about me and I wanted to reply back.

Although it's super old, I am still faithful to my Xanga. I guess whenever I update my Xanga, I'll just copy and paste it to here, unless I have something I don't want that many people to know about.

So let's see, what to write about...

OH, DUH. As of today, Obama is officially our 44th president. I'm so inaugural-ed out today! Obama this, Obama that. But hey, it's his day today. It's kind of cool to be a part of something so important and significant in American history. When I have kids and grandchildren one day, I can look back and actually tell them that I was alive when our first African American president was elected. Or, even the first minority, rather. Pretty intense stuff...

I can't stop thinking about it. I think about it everyday and I pray that God will provide. I mean, I know He always does, but I really, REALLY want this. But I guess it's whatever He wants for me. Oh how I hope He answers my prayers. Let's keep our fingers crossed! =)

I cleaned my car yesterday. A thorough cleaning, inside AND outside. Then I went and got a new stereo for it. Burn me a CD or something so I can listen to it while I cruise around!

Uhm... I guess that's it for today.

Until the next blog...