The moment you cry out to God, you become righteous to Him. Let us be the ones to ask for forgiveness when we are the ones wronged because Christ asked the Father for forgiveness when we were the ones who wronged.
Romans 12:19-21 Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay", says the Lord. On the contrary: "If your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head." Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
My Public Prayer
Dear Lord,
I have things running around in my head and I just needed to talk to You about it. Forgive me for I have been a very luke-warm Christian lately. Lord, I pray that you cleanse me of any unclean thing you see in me. I'm sorry for not devoting my time to you. I've been so caught up in other things that I forget to turn back to you and give you the praise that you most definitely deserve.
Lord, I can’t help but to feel for those whom I surround myself with. I can’t help but to feel pain for those who also are in pain, those who are suffering, those who don’t know You, Lord. Help me to not be afraid to spread Your word to those who do not yet know you. Help me share to them how loving and forgiving you are. Help me show how awesome and how great you really are. Help me help others, Lord.
I woke up this morning feeling pretty good. I turn on the computer and come across something that made my stomach feel uneasy. I don’t understand it Lord, how when I ask if everything is okay, in return, I get the response “Yeah, I’m fine” or “I’m good” or “Yes, everything is good.” Apparently not. I want to be the person that people are able to turn to for advice, to talk to, or even just to listen. But at the same time Lord, I want people to know that they can turn to You in every situation, good and bad. I want people to know that You would never give up on them and that You will always be there. I want people to know that Your hands are always stretched out to us. You are faithful Lord and I thank you for that. No matter how bad we are, no matter how many sins we’ve committed, no matter how bad the sin is, you are still there with opened arms to take us in and to love us unconditionally.
As I was driving home after dropping CJ off at school this morning, I was feeling terrible. I was feeling like a horrible person. I kept thinking to myself “What more could I have done? What did I do wrong? Why is my friend feeling that way? Why is he saying these things? What’s making him hurt inside? Why can’t he talk to me about it? Why can’t I help him?” Then, By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North came on the radio. I instantly thought about Gizmo’s Youtube video. A few months ago, he sent it to me shortly after telling me that he is attempting to live a Christian lifestyle. I can’t explain how happy and overjoyed I was to read his comment. After months and possibly years of not talking, the first thing he says is that he wants to live a Christian lifestyle. I remember being so happy for him, and happy for You Lord, for you have opened another pair of eyes to see the light of Your glory. I sat there in my car, crying, and for the first time in a very long time, my mind was clear. I listened and sang along to the song, taking in every single lyric and meditating upon the message. Lord, I thank You for playing that song this morning. It made me realize that you are always by my side, holding my hands. You are there to lift me up no matter where I am, what situation I’m in, whenever I call, you are always there. Lord I pray that others are able to seek Your name and to turn to you in all situations, good and bad. Lord I pray that you help my friend realize that you are always there for him. I pray that he realizes You will never fail him… that you are faithful. I pray that you protect him and guide him through whatever it is that he is going through. I pray that he realizes how many people care and love him. I pray that you open his eyes and have him realize that every trial, every tribulation, all the disappointing things that he has been through, has lead him to this very moment… this moment where he no longer has to fight alone. I pray that he realizes that You, Lord, are there to pick him up and walk with him, side by side, holding his hands.
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him will not perish, but have everlasting life." -John 3:16
Lord I thank you for listening and being here with me. You truly are an amazing, loving, forgiving, and faithful God.
Father thank you for hearing me and I pray that Your will be done in the name of Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior…
Amen.
Tenth Avenue North - By Your Side
Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away
Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run
And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life
(Chorus 2x)
Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go
(Chorus 2x)
I have things running around in my head and I just needed to talk to You about it. Forgive me for I have been a very luke-warm Christian lately. Lord, I pray that you cleanse me of any unclean thing you see in me. I'm sorry for not devoting my time to you. I've been so caught up in other things that I forget to turn back to you and give you the praise that you most definitely deserve.
Lord, I can’t help but to feel for those whom I surround myself with. I can’t help but to feel pain for those who also are in pain, those who are suffering, those who don’t know You, Lord. Help me to not be afraid to spread Your word to those who do not yet know you. Help me share to them how loving and forgiving you are. Help me show how awesome and how great you really are. Help me help others, Lord.
I woke up this morning feeling pretty good. I turn on the computer and come across something that made my stomach feel uneasy. I don’t understand it Lord, how when I ask if everything is okay, in return, I get the response “Yeah, I’m fine” or “I’m good” or “Yes, everything is good.” Apparently not. I want to be the person that people are able to turn to for advice, to talk to, or even just to listen. But at the same time Lord, I want people to know that they can turn to You in every situation, good and bad. I want people to know that You would never give up on them and that You will always be there. I want people to know that Your hands are always stretched out to us. You are faithful Lord and I thank you for that. No matter how bad we are, no matter how many sins we’ve committed, no matter how bad the sin is, you are still there with opened arms to take us in and to love us unconditionally.
As I was driving home after dropping CJ off at school this morning, I was feeling terrible. I was feeling like a horrible person. I kept thinking to myself “What more could I have done? What did I do wrong? Why is my friend feeling that way? Why is he saying these things? What’s making him hurt inside? Why can’t he talk to me about it? Why can’t I help him?” Then, By Your Side by Tenth Avenue North came on the radio. I instantly thought about Gizmo’s Youtube video. A few months ago, he sent it to me shortly after telling me that he is attempting to live a Christian lifestyle. I can’t explain how happy and overjoyed I was to read his comment. After months and possibly years of not talking, the first thing he says is that he wants to live a Christian lifestyle. I remember being so happy for him, and happy for You Lord, for you have opened another pair of eyes to see the light of Your glory. I sat there in my car, crying, and for the first time in a very long time, my mind was clear. I listened and sang along to the song, taking in every single lyric and meditating upon the message. Lord, I thank You for playing that song this morning. It made me realize that you are always by my side, holding my hands. You are there to lift me up no matter where I am, what situation I’m in, whenever I call, you are always there. Lord I pray that others are able to seek Your name and to turn to you in all situations, good and bad. Lord I pray that you help my friend realize that you are always there for him. I pray that he realizes You will never fail him… that you are faithful. I pray that you protect him and guide him through whatever it is that he is going through. I pray that he realizes how many people care and love him. I pray that you open his eyes and have him realize that every trial, every tribulation, all the disappointing things that he has been through, has lead him to this very moment… this moment where he no longer has to fight alone. I pray that he realizes that You, Lord, are there to pick him up and walk with him, side by side, holding his hands.
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him will not perish, but have everlasting life." -John 3:16
Lord I thank you for listening and being here with me. You truly are an amazing, loving, forgiving, and faithful God.
Father thank you for hearing me and I pray that Your will be done in the name of Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior…
Amen.
Tenth Avenue North - By Your Side
Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away
Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run
And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you
Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life
(Chorus 2x)
Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go
(Chorus 2x)
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
I felt like blogging for the sake of blogging. I came with no purpose or subject, so we'll see how this ends.
Ronnie and Dia's wedding was the Sunday after we came back from the East Coast. I was so honored to be a part of it. They are so in love! I've never cried at a wedding but I did cry at theirs. Well, not BAWLING crying, but a few tears here and there. I wish them all the best!
Then Vegas a few weeks after. I'd have to say that this trip to Vegas beat all the other times I've been there. It's funny too, because I didn't do much at all. Got to watch The Lion King and that show was AMAZING. Did some swimming and spa time, which was nice. Madam Tussaud’s Wax Museum was pretty good too, but I don’t think I’d pay another $25 to see it. Then, after tons of texts and phone calls and uncoordinated planning, after 3 long years, the wait was over. Gizmo went through all this crap, biking all over the strip, making his way to see me. It was pretty fun, the process to meet up, but only him and I could understand why. “Oh, okay, I’ll call you back.” 5 minutes later “Okay okay, I’ll call you back.” :)
Just a few things to remind me of the morning of July 4, 2009, 5:30AM-6:30AM (in no particular order):
- “I’ll call you back.”… “Okay, let me call you back.”… “Okay, I’ll call you back.”
- “It’s not the one with the monorail? What!? How many Hiltons are there!?”
- “Do you have a red blinky light thing on the back of your bike?”
- Magnetic force!
- Kirkland water & a banana
- One pocket!?
- ONE purple wheel?
- Burning sun
- Pointing out “colors” HAHA
- Get close, pull away
- Thumb war in pocket
- Samurai ponytail
- Scratch back and head
- PARANOIA!
- Palm scratching/tickle
- Whoa, BITE! What!?
- “Where are you? Let’s eat breakfast.” DANG IT, lol.
- Waving for forever until I disappeared
- “I was so happy that I started saying happy 4th to random people.”
- :]
My parents got a $100 gift card to use on specific restaurants. They decided to give it to me and my brother and we ended up spending $64 something on food. HOLY COW! It’s not that we ordered a lot, but the food was pretty pricey, at least for us. But it was pretty good, I must say. Didn’t get to see much fireworks, only maybe 5 minutes worth. Nothing different from any other fireworks.
Yes, what a great 4th of July weekend. Actually, great would totally be an understatement. Thank you, G, for everything.
The not-so-great-part about this summer: I’ve been sick TWICE already and both while I was on vacation. =/
1. I pray that we aren’t making a mistake. Everything has been so good and I pray that it continues. Maybe God is testing us…
2. Thank you for being there even after all the crap I put you though. Sometimes I act without thinking and you, of ALL people, do NOT deserve it. You’ve taught me better than that and I truly appreciate, from the bottom of my heart, all of your efforts, love, and care. I love you.
3. I’m flattered and honored that you feel that I am capable of leading. This is something I never thought I would ever do, but God willing, it can happen. I just pray that I am able to do my job well enough.
4. I know you feel pressured because of the people around you, but remember that you are your own person. I know you get frustrated with all of what people say, but remember that they only say those things because they love you. Just take things one at a time and just do your best. No matter what, I’ll always love and be proud of you.
Today is Michael Jackson’s memorial service at the Staples Center. I’m listening as I type. What a legacy he has made for himself. Rest in Peace, MJ.
If you got through all this, congrats. You are a beast.
Until Next Blog…
Ronnie and Dia's wedding was the Sunday after we came back from the East Coast. I was so honored to be a part of it. They are so in love! I've never cried at a wedding but I did cry at theirs. Well, not BAWLING crying, but a few tears here and there. I wish them all the best!
Then Vegas a few weeks after. I'd have to say that this trip to Vegas beat all the other times I've been there. It's funny too, because I didn't do much at all. Got to watch The Lion King and that show was AMAZING. Did some swimming and spa time, which was nice. Madam Tussaud’s Wax Museum was pretty good too, but I don’t think I’d pay another $25 to see it. Then, after tons of texts and phone calls and uncoordinated planning, after 3 long years, the wait was over. Gizmo went through all this crap, biking all over the strip, making his way to see me. It was pretty fun, the process to meet up, but only him and I could understand why. “Oh, okay, I’ll call you back.” 5 minutes later “Okay okay, I’ll call you back.” :)
Just a few things to remind me of the morning of July 4, 2009, 5:30AM-6:30AM (in no particular order):
- “I’ll call you back.”… “Okay, let me call you back.”… “Okay, I’ll call you back.”
- “It’s not the one with the monorail? What!? How many Hiltons are there!?”
- “Do you have a red blinky light thing on the back of your bike?”
- Magnetic force!
- Kirkland water & a banana
- One pocket!?
- ONE purple wheel?
- Burning sun
- Pointing out “colors” HAHA
- Get close, pull away
- Thumb war in pocket
- Samurai ponytail
- Scratch back and head
- PARANOIA!
- Palm scratching/tickle
- Whoa, BITE! What!?
- “Where are you? Let’s eat breakfast.” DANG IT, lol.
- Waving for forever until I disappeared
- “I was so happy that I started saying happy 4th to random people.”
- :]
My parents got a $100 gift card to use on specific restaurants. They decided to give it to me and my brother and we ended up spending $64 something on food. HOLY COW! It’s not that we ordered a lot, but the food was pretty pricey, at least for us. But it was pretty good, I must say. Didn’t get to see much fireworks, only maybe 5 minutes worth. Nothing different from any other fireworks.
Yes, what a great 4th of July weekend. Actually, great would totally be an understatement. Thank you, G, for everything.
The not-so-great-part about this summer: I’ve been sick TWICE already and both while I was on vacation. =/
1. I pray that we aren’t making a mistake. Everything has been so good and I pray that it continues. Maybe God is testing us…
2. Thank you for being there even after all the crap I put you though. Sometimes I act without thinking and you, of ALL people, do NOT deserve it. You’ve taught me better than that and I truly appreciate, from the bottom of my heart, all of your efforts, love, and care. I love you.
3. I’m flattered and honored that you feel that I am capable of leading. This is something I never thought I would ever do, but God willing, it can happen. I just pray that I am able to do my job well enough.
4. I know you feel pressured because of the people around you, but remember that you are your own person. I know you get frustrated with all of what people say, but remember that they only say those things because they love you. Just take things one at a time and just do your best. No matter what, I’ll always love and be proud of you.
Today is Michael Jackson’s memorial service at the Staples Center. I’m listening as I type. What a legacy he has made for himself. Rest in Peace, MJ.
If you got through all this, congrats. You are a beast.
Until Next Blog…
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