Winter.

It's officially Winter! I want to go up to the snow but I don't know how that's going to happen. I want to learn how to snowboard.

My break has been pretty great so far. I've got tons of downtime. I've been hanging out with people lately... CREW, now that Andrew's back and Aaron. We've been on two "adventures" so far and we're still planning more. We're thinking about City Walk on Wednesday but that's not for sure yet.

So my birthday passed and it was great. I pretty much had a whole week of birthday stuff. Sushi with the College/20-something Bible study group, Lucille's with Crew and a few other friends, Sunday morning breakfast with my parents and brother, Aaron took me out to Pink's and we had a little adventure in LA/Hollywood... fun stuff!

I've applied to a handful of jobs but nobody has called back. I wish I could find a job so that I can make my own spending money. My brother's going to college next year and my parents are going to need all the money they can get and by having a job, I could help pay for my own utilities (gas, my own spending money, cell phone, etc). Let's just pray someone will call me.

I only have two classes for Winter quarter. BOO! I'm going to try and sit in on the first day in any class I can get. I wanted to take 4 classes this quarter but we'll see how that goes.


Things I'd like to get off my chest:

1. You've been lying to me and I know about it. I mean, just tell me the truth. It's bound to come out eventually so why not just tell me? Stop saying you're going to be "good" when you turn around and do all that stupid stuff that you're doing. The only person you're really hurting is yourself. You think you're doing yourself a favor by ignoring your issues!? ******* **** isn't going to help you AT ALL. For the time being, maybe, but you're still going to have to face reality in the end. Take control of your life. You say you have Faith but really... where is it? You scare me all the time when I read the things you say. You say "Don't worry" but how can I not? I try not to... I mean, your life is really none of my business but when you put it out there like that, obviously people are going to get a glimpse of what's really going on. Please, take control and do something POSITIVE. I'm here to help as much as I can. Please, stop this nonsense.

2. I still don't know how to tell you. I don't know how to bring it up. =/

3. Sucks that you're falling into that trap, but you're smart enough to handle yourself so please don't make any excuses for yourself. I love you but I can't fight your battles for you.


Well, I'm off to Clarisse's house for brunch soon. Gotta get ready cuz I'm still in my PJs.

Until next blog...

BUH. OR. DUMB.

Boredom. The only reason I'm blogging right now is because my professor for my comm class didn't show up so the whole class left. We were supposed to start our persuasive speeches today too. Everyone was happy because nobody had to present... so now I'm sitting in the computer lab trying to kill time.

So it's been a while since I last blogged. I've been pretty lazy to blog... but it's not like anybody reads this anyway. If you do read this, I'm way more active on FB and, yes, Twitter. I got sucked into Twitter because I promised Amber that I'd make one once I got unlimited texting.

School has been tough. Lots of work but I'm pulling through. Quarter's almost done... which means finals are coming up. CRAP, I need to bust my butt for them. I don't feel mentally prepared, ugh...

1&2. It sucks how things are changing between the three of us. I thought that *this* would bring us closer but it really hasn't... at all. It sucks but I'm learning to accept it. Who knows... maybe thing will change later on in the near (or far) future.

3. I'm still skeptical about this whole situation. Unless things change, I know I can't go anywhere with our friendship. Nothing can be persued if things stay the way they are now. I pray that God helps you with whatever it is you're going through. I really want you to be well and happy. I know you enjoying making others happy but you have to learn to conquer whatever's bothering YOU. You have to overcome all the crap you went through in the past and learn from it. Don't let it hold you back. Just please, be smart with your actions. I just hope you know that I'll always be here for you.

4. After talking to *confidential*, I've, yet again, realized all the crap you put me through. What kind of friend talks and treats people the way you do? Obviously not a good one. I just pray that you change your ways and realize what's going on. Stop being blinded and naive. Please, PLEASE do the right thing.

5. You're great. I love hanging out with you. With all the crappy friendships that I'm sorting out, it's refreshing to know that you're always there. I don't know where I'd be without you... a LONER, that's for sure. I always tell you how much I appreciate and love you, but I can't say it enough. I LOVE YOU FOO! :) Thanks for all the good times and for always being by my side. You're amazing.

6. The truth's gotta come out sometime... Lord give me strength and courage.



YEAH, that's just a bit of random rambling and venting. I guess that's it for now...

Until next blog...

Hello, rain!

Sweater weather!

Hot chocolate weather!

Coat weather!

Hot soup weather!

Boots weather!

Cuddling weather!

Scarf weather!

Fireplace weather!

Snowboarding weather!

Layering weather!

Multiple blankets weather!

Beanie weather!

Windshield wiper weather!

Heater>AC weather!

Long toe socks weather!

Rainbow-after-the-rain weather!

After a long, and toasted hot summer, I'd like to introduce and welcome...

RAIN&FALL&(ALMOST)WINTER TIME! :)

Until next blog...