2010

Happy New Year!

Initially I wanted to blog about 2009 and all that junk but I don't know if I can sit on this chair and think back on all of '09. I'll just highlight whatever comes up in my head... most likely in no particular order.

The first thing that came to mind was graduation. Goodbye WHS, hello CSULA. I miss being able to see Crew every single day. It's a bit harder trying to coordinate things now but I'm glad we all still manage. The ones who matter are the ones who are still here and I'm so glad we have that bond after over half a year. Doesn't seem that long but considering that we all have our own lives now, it's pretty sweet. :)

The Vegas trip 4th of July weekend was chill. Got to finally see Gizmo, which was awesome. Sad that we didn't have much time together but we made the best out of what we had.

I was able to lead the Youth Bible study for a few weeks during the summer which was cool. It was a honor, really. I never thought I'd ever be a leader, let alone a BIBLE STUDY LEADER. Although it was awesome while it lasted, I'm not sure if I'm 100% ready to step it up yet. I need more time to learn and learn how to teach. Bonding with the kids is great though.

Got my car on August 22nd (I believe). Thank God for the whole Cash for Clunkers deal... otherwise I would still be driving Clifford (the big red van, ha!).

Repaired some old friendships and figured out which "friends" really weren't in it for the long haul. Unfortunate, yes, but not worth all the crap that came with it.

Oh, Dennis left for Afghanistan in January. He said he should be coming home sooner than expected so I'm pretty excited for that. It's ben almost ONE year. Jeez, time goes by so fast. I'm just glad he's safe over there.

Did a few mini photo shoots and stuff this past year. I really wish I had more time and money to invest in my photography. See, the weird thing is... people seem to like my photography. They comment and say what a good job I do and etc etc... but honestly, I don't think I'm that good at all. I'm always criticizing my work and find every little thing to pick at. But I guess that saying is right: "You are your worst critic." Something like that, I don't know. But yes, I want to get better at it... at taking pictures and expressing myself better in those pictures. I want to be able to speak to different people through my photography. I want to show people what I see when I look at different things and people. Maybe this year will be a fresh start for all of that. And to those who support me with this (especially my cousin Klein), I thank you, TRULY, from the bottom of my heart.

East coast trip in June with all the aunts, uncles, cousins... FAMILY tme. 10 days with like... 16 or so people. AMAZING trip. Went for Floyd's graduation. Magna Cum Laude graduate. That's my cousin! We're all so proud of him. Visited 10 different states, had a lot of laughs and inside jokes with the cousins... I just love spending time with them!

First quarter of college = DONE. Passed all my classes, THANK GOD. I think the first quarter was a test for me... sort of to... test the waters of college, if you will. Met a few cool people... and some not so cool people. The thing about college is you meet new people that you know absolutely NOTHING about. That could be a good AND bad thing. I just can't believe that guy SERIOUSLY thought I was into him... then turns around and messes around. Glad I didn't give him the time of day. Got my first dose of what "college guys" are all about. I know there are plenty who aren't like that jerk but I'm not gonna let my guard down. BRING IT ON, BOYS!

Spent a lot of the past 6/7/8ish months with Danielle. She's turned out to be one of my REALLY good friends... and to think we've been in the same group of friends since middle school! I'm glad our friendship grew stronger this past year. We've both gone through a pretty crazy year and I'm glad we were both able to be there for each other. She's had a tough year and I'm glad she felt comfortable enough to come to me. I pray that our friendship continues to grow stronger throughout the years. Seriously... I don't know who I'd have when Crew hangs out. I can only handle being around guys for so long... THANKS FOR BEING MY RIDE-OR-DIE CHICK DANIELLE! Seriously... you know how the guys can be sometimes. I'm just glad we're always there for each other. You're the best niggs! Dude, screw all the crap in 2009! It's a brand new year. Let's learn from our past and make 2010 a good one. :) I LOVE YOU FOO!

December was a good month. Lots of hanging out, family time, parties, kickbacks, cousin bonding, and just... EVERYTHING was great. My birthday week was amazing. Grandma's party was super fun. Driving down to SD was awesome. Christmas was fun! New years was great! Disneyland with my cousins and niece was really fun but SO tiring because I had 2 hours of sleep the night before. Surprisingly Disneyland wasn't that crowded on New Years Day.



Yeah... there's TONS more I want to write about. I might continue later. MIGHT being the key word. With the whole new years resolutions thing... I'm only making realistic ones. I don't want to make ones that I'll only end up stopping a month of 2 into the new year. We'll see how everything goes.

Thank you, 2009. You were a good year to me. Lots of ups, downs, lefts, rights, upside-downs and right-side ups. Thank you for everything but we've all gotta move on to 2010. Let's see what this year has to offer.

Until next blog, everybody...

(Pft, I say "everybody" as if people actually read this, LOL!)

:)

Winter.

It's officially Winter! I want to go up to the snow but I don't know how that's going to happen. I want to learn how to snowboard.

My break has been pretty great so far. I've got tons of downtime. I've been hanging out with people lately... CREW, now that Andrew's back and Aaron. We've been on two "adventures" so far and we're still planning more. We're thinking about City Walk on Wednesday but that's not for sure yet.

So my birthday passed and it was great. I pretty much had a whole week of birthday stuff. Sushi with the College/20-something Bible study group, Lucille's with Crew and a few other friends, Sunday morning breakfast with my parents and brother, Aaron took me out to Pink's and we had a little adventure in LA/Hollywood... fun stuff!

I've applied to a handful of jobs but nobody has called back. I wish I could find a job so that I can make my own spending money. My brother's going to college next year and my parents are going to need all the money they can get and by having a job, I could help pay for my own utilities (gas, my own spending money, cell phone, etc). Let's just pray someone will call me.

I only have two classes for Winter quarter. BOO! I'm going to try and sit in on the first day in any class I can get. I wanted to take 4 classes this quarter but we'll see how that goes.


Things I'd like to get off my chest:

1. You've been lying to me and I know about it. I mean, just tell me the truth. It's bound to come out eventually so why not just tell me? Stop saying you're going to be "good" when you turn around and do all that stupid stuff that you're doing. The only person you're really hurting is yourself. You think you're doing yourself a favor by ignoring your issues!? ******* **** isn't going to help you AT ALL. For the time being, maybe, but you're still going to have to face reality in the end. Take control of your life. You say you have Faith but really... where is it? You scare me all the time when I read the things you say. You say "Don't worry" but how can I not? I try not to... I mean, your life is really none of my business but when you put it out there like that, obviously people are going to get a glimpse of what's really going on. Please, take control and do something POSITIVE. I'm here to help as much as I can. Please, stop this nonsense.

2. I still don't know how to tell you. I don't know how to bring it up. =/

3. Sucks that you're falling into that trap, but you're smart enough to handle yourself so please don't make any excuses for yourself. I love you but I can't fight your battles for you.


Well, I'm off to Clarisse's house for brunch soon. Gotta get ready cuz I'm still in my PJs.

Until next blog...

BUH. OR. DUMB.

Boredom. The only reason I'm blogging right now is because my professor for my comm class didn't show up so the whole class left. We were supposed to start our persuasive speeches today too. Everyone was happy because nobody had to present... so now I'm sitting in the computer lab trying to kill time.

So it's been a while since I last blogged. I've been pretty lazy to blog... but it's not like anybody reads this anyway. If you do read this, I'm way more active on FB and, yes, Twitter. I got sucked into Twitter because I promised Amber that I'd make one once I got unlimited texting.

School has been tough. Lots of work but I'm pulling through. Quarter's almost done... which means finals are coming up. CRAP, I need to bust my butt for them. I don't feel mentally prepared, ugh...

1&2. It sucks how things are changing between the three of us. I thought that *this* would bring us closer but it really hasn't... at all. It sucks but I'm learning to accept it. Who knows... maybe thing will change later on in the near (or far) future.

3. I'm still skeptical about this whole situation. Unless things change, I know I can't go anywhere with our friendship. Nothing can be persued if things stay the way they are now. I pray that God helps you with whatever it is you're going through. I really want you to be well and happy. I know you enjoying making others happy but you have to learn to conquer whatever's bothering YOU. You have to overcome all the crap you went through in the past and learn from it. Don't let it hold you back. Just please, be smart with your actions. I just hope you know that I'll always be here for you.

4. After talking to *confidential*, I've, yet again, realized all the crap you put me through. What kind of friend talks and treats people the way you do? Obviously not a good one. I just pray that you change your ways and realize what's going on. Stop being blinded and naive. Please, PLEASE do the right thing.

5. You're great. I love hanging out with you. With all the crappy friendships that I'm sorting out, it's refreshing to know that you're always there. I don't know where I'd be without you... a LONER, that's for sure. I always tell you how much I appreciate and love you, but I can't say it enough. I LOVE YOU FOO! :) Thanks for all the good times and for always being by my side. You're amazing.

6. The truth's gotta come out sometime... Lord give me strength and courage.



YEAH, that's just a bit of random rambling and venting. I guess that's it for now...

Until next blog...